수요일, 10월 20, 2004
i hAtE LsM 2201!!!!
sheesh...another disgusting dae at the lab todae..LS Lab 1...i will neva ever forget this lab for the rest of my life, cos it's the place where i spent my most horrible daes at uni. sigh..i noe nuts abt what im doing each week! argh~ tried reading everything on 'experimental biochemistry' (such a nice name for such a freek module) that i cld lay my hands on but still each week at the lab seems just like a dream to me. Feel quite bad to my lab-mates though..cos im like ultra blur. Gives me a migraine jus thinking about glutamate dehydrogenase..n probably a nightmare soon at the rate its going right now..2201 is the worst module i have ever taken so far, nothin is comparable to its degree of disgusting-ness lor..*eukes*
When will i ever graduate from this abyss of darkness and finally get started on my wonderful hotel management course?? It sure seems sooooooooo much more interesting and fun than 'cuse me, 'L-I-F-E S-C-I-E-N-C-E' ...duh...i was cheated into this faculty man..how come yr one seemed such a breeze , well kinda..n yr two is so erm, beyond description..yapz..words are barely enough for me to describe my beloved LSM..the perfect adoration that i have for this course and of cos, its wonderful wonderful lab sessions that come with it....whoaaa~~what can anybdy else ask for in this world..
yeah i should be contented.
또 울어버렸다.. @ 7:36 PM
화요일, 10월 19, 2004
bOred watchin' webcasts the whole dae long......
Cun believe i actually dreamt of multiple sequence alignment yesterdae..ARgh!!! and the stupid thing is that last week after prac on Thurs i actually dreamt of 2201 lab too..oh my god~~ what is my world coming to?! LSM modules are practically invading into the privacy of my dreams...*faints* Luckily i neva dream of watching webcasts (touch wood)..Considering i never even go for any LSM lects anymore, why issit that im still struggling to finish all the never-ending projects?? -sobsob-
Heh, but seriously im feelin much betta nowadaes as compared to last week. Not so depressed..last week's illness really brought out aLL the misery in me..haha~ But still, im not much impressed with uni..and especially since last week (i forgot which dae) i was like going home as usual after my jap tutorial. Den i was going up the escalator and there were these 2 guys in front of me. Cos i usually will walk til the end of the platform (less pple), so i continued walking and and 2 guys also continued walking when suddenly one of the guy dunno sae wat to the moron n and he turned and looked at me. The worst thing was that the moron actually half turned back to his fren and said 'why am i following him' and he laughed so loudly.. HA-HA-HA..i dun find it funny at all lor..idiot guy..think he very handsome or wat..he's like damn ugly, block my wae, still wanna crap with me..*puKes*
Such a jerk... n i think most prob from NUS too..Singapore guys really cannot make it at all..me and angie thinks so too...though she seems more defensive heh..i think only 5% of the guys can make it..ok fine my cut off percentage was based on both character and looks..if jus based on character, i think the % will further decrease..hmmm...
okok gotta get back to my monotonous webcast by Prof Ch*n Y* Z**g...heh not tryin to scold bad words kae..jus wanna give him some privacy in case his fans harass him or wat...haha..
또 울어버렸다.. @ 9:50 AM
목요일, 10월 14, 2004
*dePresSed* angel
Today seems like a real sad day..=( Somehow or another, it started off entirely on the wrong side. Was it becos i rolled out of bed on the wrong side this morning? hmmm..seems plausible huh~ seriously, i think there must be something wrong with the efficiency of mrt staff. Euphoria ended on sat din it? Den how come i still see posters of it sticking practically wherever i turn my head to and not just in the MRT station, but even the entire train itself is like completely full of them!!!!!!!ARGHHH~~
*my heart hurts reaL bad* this IS a real lousy, idiocratic, bad, terrible, horrendous, disgusting dae..=(
Shucks..i just cun seem to get Shinhwa out of my head. I think this regret will probably bug me for the rest of my life..now im like feeling totally helpless and frustrated. ITs not i dowan to stop thinking about it, i cun even stop stop thinking about it. U get what i mean? Nah, how would anyone understand the loss im experiencing right now..pple would just laugh it off and tell me: 'Whats the big deal about missing Shinhwa? They are just a pop boyband blah blah blah blah blah....'
*my heart still hurts badly*
This world is soo unfair..some people try so hard in their lives to get what they want, and others get by perfectly without even trying. I think i feel so sick of this world i cun even construct my thoughts clearly. Happiness seems like such a gigantic word to me right now. It seems so ethereal, so fantasy-like, it doesnt seem real..Why cun happiness be something more solid so that i can touch it to get a feel of what it really meant?
S.I.G.H
또 울어버렸다.. @ 9:07 PM
수요일, 10월 13, 2004
iTs me again.......
still in a major obsession with haruka todae..-in a trancelike state- ahhhhhhhh and i'm sooo hungry!! argh. My dad is like taking super long to get home with my dinner while im starving and my brain is practically screaming all its worth for more glucose. 'Heelp, heelp!' it says..' I need more suGar!' it cries, pathetically..(erm is there such a word called pathetically in the first place?) sigh, i think i lead a sad life...communicating with my own brain cells.
Heh, told zhiyun todae im 3/4 straight and 1/4 not straight..im like kinda propagating my own 'preferences' to everybdy..haha..its fUn~~ lalalala...days gone by without me noticing them..not that i have the time to really GO and notice it. Hmm, i sound contradictory..
-Life is like a box of Hershey's Cookies and Cream. You either get Cookies, or u get Cream.-
one day when you realise:
memories that you once held so dearly
where have they gone?
it could only mean one thing:
somewhere in the depths of your heart
you are already beginning
to forget them
또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:14 PM
화요일, 10월 12, 2004
haruKa tenoH.......
I have finally finally gotten rid of the dreadful fever and flu that have been plaguing me since last Sunday. Was feelin pretty miserable with myself during the past week so much so i thought i was going to drown in my own self pity. Stupid u may sae, but i was really feelin terrible. Being sick, havin tons of homework that seems never-ending to do, tests to study and the worst was not being able to go for Euphoria. How stupid can that be u tell me..all the exchanging for tiger beer caps and tabs and goodness-knows-wat-else....aLL to nothing. N-O-T-H-I-N-G..Shinhwa seems to be just being back to a dream to me. In fact, the whole week seemed like a dream to me. Hm, did i really passed a week without knowing it? -shrugs- I must be gettin old and senile...
sPent the week sick layin in bed and watching sailormoon..haha (dry laughter) Love sailoruranus so much i actually have her pic on my msn messenger and comp wallpaper now..she's so cool~~budden again it makes me feel like im a bisexual..i even told my mum i must be exhibiting signs of bein one..haha who cares. I only like gals who look like guys anyway, which makes me half a bi. So to put it more accurately, im 3/4 straight and 1/4 erm not straight? (i refuses to use curved for any purpose; it sounds perverted) And coincidentally i managed to catch a recent episode of Singapore idol when i saw Sylvester sim...heh it was loVe at first sight..(i dun mean it literally thank you) The way he carried himself absolutely endeared me to him immediately..heh i did say i have a liking for quiet guys. Hates guys who are AA...eg, Jerry and David. But well, the latter is alreade out..and the former is, well surprisingly, still stickin his face around..ok fine better stop before somebdy sues me for slander. Anywae, the moral of the story is vote for Sly!! Im sure he will do fine for World idol..cos he looks totally Singaporean..but if he doesnt win, i hope Leandra wins. That gal has the nicest features put together in such a perfect manner...sigh..if only i HAD half the looks..cos she looks so darn cute..
Hmm...tsktsk..i actually wrote quite a long entry todae..this past week i thought alot about everything..guess i am a complete failure at appreciating all the finer things around me and especially the people around me..although i dun think the person i hope will read this will actually be reading this..but in any case, i would just like to apologise for the exceedingly short-circuited fuse i have been...cos i really din mean to hurt anyone..least to mention, him..and all because of the stupid education system in singapore which sucks..I HATE SCHOOL!!!! Do i need to mention more? DUH>..i think i shld dedicate one whole blog to that topic somedae..Uni life is getting increasingly on my nerves..it is in fact steppin on virtually every single neuron in my CNS which is sending 100000 signals via the ion-channel linked receptors known as neurotransmitter from my brain to all parts of the body screaming: " I HATE SCHOOL!!! now u get my meaning..school shld be eliminated, destroyed, annihilated, bombed and razed down to a piece of barren land...yeay that sounds so wunnnderfuuuul~~~
또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:38 AM